Hmmmzz so I'm going to stay in SISPEC for another minimum 1 more month...hahz feeling juz a tinge of disappointment bcuz I really did try v hard during these 6 weeks n I felt my chances were pretty gd...but den again e OC did say that our performance in here for e first 6 weeks has minimal impact on who crosses over bcuz SISPEC has no say in e selection so I guess I'll juz have to try n remain consistent for e next 4 weeks den hopefully wif a bit of luck I can make e crossover...The long break has sortuv caused me to lose my drive a little...really hope I will be able to regain my focus when training starts...

Still not really sure yz I really wanna be an officer...I guess a part of it comes from peer n parental pressure...my Dad thinks I shud be an officer bcuz I have e calibre to n my frenz feel I shud grab at any chance to go in bcuz they feel that I have e ability to thrive dere...For me...I guess my motivations for wanting to go to OCS: 1) bcuz I desire a greater challenge in army...SISPEC is eh "slack" n I want to move on to bigger challenges... 2) bcuz i hope to have more say in army matters in e future...which can only happen if i climb up e army hierarchy...an addition to tt might be I have a big ego n I dun wanna be in a situation where i have to take orders from an upper tt I totally dun respect...hahz yeah n i still harbour dreams of being an AEO=)

Went out wif Sin Yee yesterday...watched Divergence...hmmmzz didn't quite understand e whole plot bcuz it was kinda messed up but e scenes were not bad...den after tt went wif her to Expo to meet up wif Mabel who was supposed to go tao ze concert wif her...hahaz so tempted to call mabel "Miss Yeo!" like all her Bedok South students bcuz she absolutely looks like a teacher tt u can bully...hahaz dun be fooled by her looks thou she can be real fierce=p hahz sure great to see tt everyone is doing well...

going sleep le...juz wanna say a very gd night to *u*...*nitez*

hahaz e April batch of recruits juz came into Tekong this week! A pity couldn't see them because booked out late yesterday...hahaz dunnoz yz but it's always a joy to see these unwilling teenage kids and uneasy parents coming in into Pulau Tekong Ferry terminal looking all tense and throwing the sergeants suspicious glances...probably because those were e exact expressions we gave when we first came into tekong...and it juz seems so funny now bcuz after coming thru it we realise tt there really ain't much to army...juz follow e rules, be disciplined, take care of yourself and your equipment and have a positive attitude and army does have its fair share of pleasurable and memorable experiences...it may be tough physically and mentally, but den once u have completed it u will feel a sense of achievement and be glad tt u have done it and then after a while u will be looking for more challenges to tackle n new things to learn=) hahaz anyway all e best to those who have juz gone in and do enjoy your BMT because it is really going to be e most enjoyable part of your 2 years in army (REALLY!!)

hmmmzz going into 4th week at SISPEC...so far e first 3 weeks we have mostly been taking lessons...like navigation, signalling, section weapons, mines, explosives...next week gonna be e time where we go chiong sua and apply dem...sergeant said it's gonna be tough...and I hope I'll get thru it wif flying colours because i really hope to be 1 of 20 to make e jump to OCS at e 6th week...

U know everytime when I feel like I'm losing my strength, everytime when I feel like giving up...I can always count on your silent encouragement to give me tt extra push and nudge...and your smile to bring sunshine to e darkest days...

I miss U.